"If tomorrow starts without me,

And I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,

We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,

As much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me,

I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,

Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name,

And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,

In heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind

All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,

A tear fell from my eye,

For all my life, I'd always thought,

I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,

So much left yet to do,

It seemed almost impossible,

That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,

The good ones and the bad;

I thought of all that we shared,

And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,

Just even for a while,

I'd say good-bye and kiss you

And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,

That this could never be,

For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,

I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did,

My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,

I felt so much at home,

When God looked down and smiled at me,

From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,

And all I've promised you."

Today your life on earth is past,

But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,

But today will always last,

And since each day is the same way,

there's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,

So trusting and so true,

Though there were times you did some things,

You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven,

And now at last you're free.

So won't you come and take my hand,

And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,

don 't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me,

I'm rig ht here, in your heart "

Grab some tissue - open your heart, mind and sole to the reality of  what we call "life".  This is not for the tender heart...This is for those who wonder what it is like to loose or just are unable to find the words to describe their feelings or just scared to let it all out.  It is wrote out in black in white without reservation.  Truth is spoken and unanswered questions are asked.

Have you ever loved so much it hurts?  Have you thought to yourself that nothing will ever be the same...A feeling that makes you feel life is not worth living?  Have you ever caught yourself standing unable to take a breathe for a short while? Do you often think of all the should haves, could haves, and would haves?  Do you ever just find yourself starring out in never never land...Cold chills and the feeling someone is present but can not be?  Have you ever felt someone is calling your name for help but you are unable to answer, unable to guide them, and unable to comfort them?  Have you ever woke straight out of bed because of sleepless sleep...So tired but unable to rest as others do?  Have you ever made a promise that you would "never let go" and before you knew it he was gone and there is not a thing you can do about it?  Or the chance passes you by for saying "I am sorry"?  Have you ever felt that you hold someone's life in the palm of your hand...Knowing that your very decision would be the one to end theirs?  Do you feel lonely even when you are completely surrounded by numerous people each and everyday?  Do you laugh and then just start crying because that feeling of loss creped back up on you before you knew it almost feeling guilty because you were able to smile again?  Or do the simple things bring back immense feelings...Certain smells, certain times of the year, certain conversations, a certain touch?

You would think that as time passes the longing would eventually dissolve but to me it get worse.  You get better at covering up what hurts the most.  When reality sets in and knowing that you wont get that chance ever again or feel the way you did when they were here sitting right next to you. Each day is a new day and I know that hurt does not make the world stop turning.  Life is a game and you have to keep playing until it is your turn to go -- Maybe just maybe at that time comfort will be found, loneliness goes away, and hurt stops hurting.

YOU'RE IN MY DASH

I read of a woman who stood to speak

At the funeral of a friend

She referred to the dates on his tombstone

From the beginning ... to the end.

She noted that first came his date of birth

And spoke the following date with tears,

But she said what mattered most of all

Was the dash between those years (1977 - 2006)

For that dash represents all the time

That he spent alive on earth...

And now only those who loved him

Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;

The cars...the house...the cash,

What matters is how we live and love

And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard...

Are there things you'd like to change?

For you never know how much time is left,

For your life to still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough

To consider what's true and real,

And always try to understand

The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,

And show appreciation more

And love the people in our lives

Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,

And more often wear a smile..

Remembering that this special dash

Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy's being read

With your life's actions to rehash...

Would you be proud of the things they say

About how you spent your dash?

I am glad that you're in my life and part of my dash.

My life would have had a huge void without

You being such an important part of it!

The loss of Michael Wayne in July of 2005 was a tragic and unexpected which leaves questions that will forever be unanswered. Much too young to be taken from us so soon!  He touched several people in his life here - some more than others.  He was a man that did not think that the world would miss him but he wasn't fooling anyone but himself.  Michael Wayne was the most caring and sincere person but just like anyone else he had flaws...No more than any other.  Michael Wayne was ALWAYS there for you, never one to pass judgement, and always stood beside you - Not in front of or behind!  This man had a heart that would just simply take your breathe away.  Eyes that were paralyzing and so intense.  Michael Wayne had an ora about him that could not possibly be put into words!  Solely dedicated and loyal - Something that only comes once in a lifetime!

Until we meet again, Michael Wayne!  I will never let go!  Proving that not even death stops a craving heart.

A memorial album is currently being put together for

Michael Wayne!

Often we like to forget or pretend that death has not happened, or just try to ignore our feelings.  This page is a bit different though - We do not want to forget.  We want to remember all that was good even if that means revealing all the things that hurt the deepest.  Michael Wayne would not want to be forgotten - I know this because he told me a multiple occasions.  I can not bring him back but I can do all that I am physically capable of even if it means dedicating a simple page on a website to keep his memory alive!  I made promises to him and I am forever indebted to following those through the best I can.

 

We have lost many that have forever impacted our lives in some shape or form!  Everyone on this page is endlessly remembered in our hearts!  It seems that our list gets longer and longer each year which is terribly hard to cope with but we understand that this is life's journey.  All we can do is wait until we see them all again one day...Hug their neck so tight and never let go  It can only get better from here, right?

Bill Wilson

Michael Wilson

Buddy Clemmons

Doris Hager

Grandma and Grandpa Streeter

Guy Poole

Billy Dilday